New Delhi: Robin Uthappa, who was an important member of Team India's 2007 T20 World Cup winning team, said that in his career he struggled with depression and suicidal thoughts for two years when cricket was the only reason that made him 'jump from the balcony'. Prevented from. Uthappa, who has played 46 ODIs and 13 T20 Internationals for India, was bought by Rajasthan Royals in the IPL this year for three crore rupees. The IPL has been postponed due to Coronavirus epidemic. Uthappa said in the live session 'Mind, Body and Soul' of the Royal Rajasthan Foundation that, 'I remember it was happening continuously between 2009 and 2011 and I had to face it every day. I was not even thinking about cricket at that time. He said, 'I used to think how this day will be and how the next day will be, what is happening in my life and in which direction I am moving. Cricket got these things out of my mind. There was a big problem in different days or off-season. Uthappa has said that, 'I used to sit here and there in those days thinking that I should run and jump from the balcony. But something held me back. ' Uthappa told that at this time he started writing a diary. He said, 'I started the process of understanding myself as a human being. After this, seek external help so that you can change your life. After that it was a period when he was not selected in Team India even after captaining India A in Australia. He said, 'I don't know why, I was working so hard, but not scoring runs. I was not willing to believe that there was any problem with me. We sometimes do not want to accept that there is a mental problem. ' After this, Uthappa scored the most runs in the 2014–15 Ranji season. Also Read: Robin Uthappa wanted to die for this reason Sri Lankan Cricket Board says, 'No national player is under ICC investigation' American player Drew Brees says "Will never agree with players kneeling during National Anthem" Spielberg will host two races in month of July